A beautiful, sunny day. Fall colors in full bloom. The following photos were taken the afternoon of Harold’s passing, before we had any clue that our lives would change forever.
Every moment plays in your mind during times of tragedy. A day that may have been as ordinary as any other and suddenly each step you took moves in slow motion. You begin to wonder how it may have been different.
You think of “what-if’s” and “should have’s.”
I suppose sharing these pictures now may assist in the process of grief. Intended to bring light. I’ve thought about tucking them away, never even looking at them let alone putting them out there for you to experience. But something’s been nagging at me and it may seem hokey but it’s as though I can’t write another thing until I allow myself to let them go.
I’ll definitely say I’m no photographer, I just like taking pictures and (*affiliate*) my goal to get better is on the horizon.
It’s no surprise that my understanding is so much deeper for the differences people experience while going through heartache.
For me it’s been a question of purpose. I’m certain we’ve all wondered why we’re here and what is it that we’re supposed to accomplish in this life. In many ways I’ve been paralyzed in the creative process because of this.
What to write about? Why would it matter? Will anyone care? And if they do, will it be worthy?
Emotions work their way to the surface and understanding that by simply writing, photographing…experiencing life is purely the reason.
Keep going…just because you can. Live because you are here and dream because it is possible and know that someday you’ll see him again. In the meantime, Twin Cedars Resort will mark this Fall with deep sadness but somehow continue to see the beauty that surrounds us.
Fall 2016
Gorgeous pics, Meghan! Each one with Harold’s approval, no doubt. Full of love. Perfect!
I can so sympathize with your feeling about Fall. My sadness is centered around Christmas, a time when I lost Mom, Dad and husband. I will get easier but you will never forget. My prayers are with you and the whole family. Wishing you peace.
Carol
So beautiful Thank you for sharing.
Very beautiful Meghan. I love what you wrote. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and photos. Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
Janet
These pictures and words are as beautiful as your heart. ?
Beautiful pics…beautiful writing.
I am so sorry to hear of Harold’s death. Stopping at Twin Cedars to get minnows from him was a tradition that spanned years. He experienced such life changing relief when you and Bob took over- he was just so happy, and it was good to see him smile and laugh! I’m glad we were there for that potluck dinner- a good way to remember him. Best wishes and good thoughts for all of you. Hopefully we will see you in the summer.